Pondering.

I do most of my thinking at night. When I lay down my head tends to go about a million miles a minute. Most of the time the thinking is about what bills I need to pay and things I need to get done. The other night in particular I was thinking about a blog post I had read awhile back in which the person wrote a letter to themselves at 18.

I started thinking about what I would say to myself.

I then started wondering what my life would’ve been like if I hadn’t
….gone to LSU?
….moved back to Houston after just one year?
….had that long distance relationship with M?
….moved out of my parents house into that apartment?
….joined a sorority?
….left school?
….e-mailed Anthony to meet up the night of our first date?

It was then that I realized that doing just one thing different could have altered the eventual path my life would take. I was unhappy for a long time. I made a lot of mistakes and definitely made a lot of stupid decisions that I wish I could change.

Then again – had I not done those things I may not have ever met my husband or had my daughter when I did. I couldn’t imagine my life without them.

It was then I realized that despite all the unhappiness and difficult roads my life had taken – I am so incredibly blessed and I wouldn’t change it for the world.